Ramblings from a stressed-out WAHM while potty training… {My Day Friday Accountability Check In: Week 12}

August 7, 2015 Kristin, Exploring Domesticity

It’s crazy how a week can go by so fast and when you look back so many little things lead to it being a complete disaster without you even knowing…

This was a week where I did a lot of damage without even realizing it. How many of those did I have without paying any attention that lead me to where I am today?

I barely want to write about it… I’m discouraged and disappointed about my lack of success lately…

Let’s just get it over with…

Ugh… This post might turn into a WAHM whiny rant…

As I was feeling disappointed over my progress from last week, my 2yo peed all over her bedroom floor…

These are the moment when I want to lose it.

She needs to be potty trained for preschool next month and it has not been easy. The problem is definitely consistency. I work from home and I’m fortunate enough to have a nanny Monday through Wednesday mornings. On the remaining days, I always vow to get intense with it and finish this potty training thing once and for all, and something always comes up. Summer outings get in the way, my parents offer to take the kids, errands I couldn’t run while working during the beginning of the week need to be done, and it leaves me feeling like we will never get there. Not to mention, my husband who has everything to say about potty training but can never remember to take her to the potty even once…

Today I decided to keep everyone in the living room on this rainy day, keep her pantless, and get it done. I got the kiddos set with all sorts of activities and tried to spend some time on this depressing post about my weight gain for the week. My 2yo runs to her room and I call to remind her we’re playing in the living room today. As I have to call another time, I know it’s too late…

It’s 10am and besides one time that she claims she went on the potty by herself when I was on the phone with my mom, she hasn’t gone all morning and here it was all over the carpet in her room…

I almost lost it!

Not because my little one is learning to use the potty, but because I feel like a failure in this moment…

I’m trying desperately to hang on to my job which is difficult because of time, but I’m so grateful to have it and I don’t want to lose it. I’ve let this blog slack and it is my passion and something I would like to elevate someday. My health goals have majorly slid, as evident by this post.

To top it all off, my little girl is suffering (she’s not suffering, but potty training is suffering) because I don’t have the energy or time to give her 100% of my attention.

It’s always, “if I could just get this one thing out of the way, then I will…”

I guess I will be relieved if I do lose my job. I chose to be a stay-at-home-mom and somewhere down the line my extra interests and picking up what I thought was going to be a small commitment for some extra money got in the way and allowed me to lose sight of those precious moments I wanted to be home for in the first place.

I hate telling my kids to wait, telling them I can’t right now, wanting to spend the day with them but always thinking of something else that needs to be done first. I definitely miss when I could just enjoy the kids and make our health my main focus…. I may have to get back to that…

Well, there it is…. Not the post I expected to write, but it’s where my head is right now…